She Writes
Sunday, September 30, 2007
History
Few days ago, two persons brought it up to me... Flashes of images flowed back again... All I wanted to say was...
posted by Samantha at 7:41 PM
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Someone Help Me!
For the past few weeks, I have been bothered by them. I don't know why they are digging up the past. The worst was that, they have the misconception that I am still affected by what happened!
Come on, I have gotten over it long time ago! I hated to dig out my painful history and explained to them my current feelings. Then the cycle goes round and round because they don't buy it. How many things do they want to talk about it?
I just feel so sick!
Come on, I have gotten over it long time ago! I hated to dig out my painful history and explained to them my current feelings. Then the cycle goes round and round because they don't buy it. How many things do they want to talk about it?
I just feel so sick!
posted by Samantha at 9:59 PM
Sunday, August 26, 2007
26th August Farewell Speech
Good Afternoon Everyone!
My district had organized this meeting with the intention of giving me a send-off. I would like to thank them, Naka, Bee Khim, Bee Lay and Chee Eng. Bee Khim had came up with great agenda today. Also the rest were busying with the food, the games and other preparations etc. Thank you for everything. I hope all of you have enjoyed yourselves.
I would like to thank all of you for coming, in particularly to send me off. Never have I felt so honour that so many people are here for me! For those who do not know, I will be leaving for my further studies in UK next month.
I would like to thank a few people who make this happen. Firstly, to my family for their support especially my parents who are supporting me financially. Instead of retiring and enjoying their lives now, they have invested their retirement funds on my overseas studies.
I am very thankful to a group of colleagues and unfortunately, most can’t make it today. They have taken great care of me like their sister. Most of them graduated from UK and shared with me their experiences. They have helped me along my way, giving me lots of precious advices. One of my great ex-colleague, Boon is here with me together with his girlfriend.
I would like to talk about my district since they are the main front and backstage roles today. I got to know my district leaders, Naka, Bee Khim, Bee Lay and Chee Eng about 4 years ago. I joined in this district when I was just promoted to a YWD Assistance Leader. That time I was very worried. When I first heard that my district MD is a Japanese, I felt stressed. It is because I have the impression that Japanese leader is stern and very strict. However, when I get to know Naka, I realised that he is a very wonderful man.
Naka amazed me with his multi- tasking roles. He is a family man, a businessman, a part- time student, a leader and an active participant for events like NDP. How did he manage to do all so well? That is something that I could never figure out. He has never complains, doing his best for all of us and the members.
Bee Khim never failed to enlighten me with her broad knowledge. She holds the answers to many questions we have. I have learnt so much from her. Bee Lay, the sunshine lady full of laughter, I hope to be like her who makes people smile and laugh all the time. She is the medicine for moody souls.
Chee Eng’s strength inspired me. He move on with strong faith during bad times, never give up and never doubt what he practices. He shown us great actual proof.
Thank you all of you for being with me for four years, giving me guidance, care and understandings. I will miss the time that we work together.
To my YWD leaders, Angie and Florence, you have been great sisters to me, always lending a listening ear to me, always believed in me.
I want to thank all the members from my district, for giving me the opportunity to develop my potential. If I do not have your support, I wouldn’t have been growing.
I would like to keep in touch with all of you. I will be passing this paper around. You can leave your name and email address.
Are you all surprised that I am leaving? Many people have asked why am I pursuing my studies out of a sudden? I have been working for 6 years, why this time? In short, I will put it as opportunities come at the right time.
How do I feel to pursue my studies after graduated for so long? I was worried if I could cope. I have been out of school for so long, I wonder if I could catch up, another factor that contribute to my worries is that I will be taking a different course. It is Medical Engineering.
Medical Engineering is the application of Engineering principles to the medical field. Examples range from the design of artificial joints, development and testing of new medical equipment, to calculating the time of death of human corpses. Very interesting right? But can I handle it? Do I have what it takes to complete my studies?
Then, it takes lot of courage to leave my family and my friends to a place which I am unfamilar and have no one. Many people thinks that “wow”, I am so adventurous to go UK alone for a period of time. But deep inside, there were fears, uncertainties, worries etc...
I have never thought of having this opportunity to study abroad. It is something that I would never expect in my life and I was not prepared for. To me, I have to move out of my comfort zone to another place. It is like I have to learn to crawl again like a baby.
When I was young, Dad always tell me that you have nothing to fear because you have the Gonhonzon. Til now, I always keep this in my mind. There is nothing to be afraid of because we are strong and we can overcome all the obstacles. That is what my Buddhism teaches me too. All of us have the potential to do the most unexpected.
Ikeda Sensei’s says “What is the treasure of youth? It is struggle; it is hard work. Unless you struggle, you cannot become truly strong. Those who fight hard during their youth will have nothing to fear when the time comes to put the finishing touches on their lives. They will possess a great state of life that towers strong and unshakable. In Buddhism, we call this the state of Buddhahood, which nothing can undermine or destroy. It is a state of mind enjoyed by invincible champions of life.”
I know that I will have a difficult time in UK, coping with new environment and culture, struggling and coping on a new course but with this guidance, I know that I can be a champion in my life. I believed that that I will have great experiences to share at the end of my course. Please look forward to my victory after two years.
After my graduation, I hope to work in the medical field, to contribute more to humanity. That is my passion. I hope to see all of you again in good health, stronger faith, wisdom and many victories to share with me.
Once again, thank you all of you.
My district had organized this meeting with the intention of giving me a send-off. I would like to thank them, Naka, Bee Khim, Bee Lay and Chee Eng. Bee Khim had came up with great agenda today. Also the rest were busying with the food, the games and other preparations etc. Thank you for everything. I hope all of you have enjoyed yourselves.
I would like to thank all of you for coming, in particularly to send me off. Never have I felt so honour that so many people are here for me! For those who do not know, I will be leaving for my further studies in UK next month.
I would like to thank a few people who make this happen. Firstly, to my family for their support especially my parents who are supporting me financially. Instead of retiring and enjoying their lives now, they have invested their retirement funds on my overseas studies.
I am very thankful to a group of colleagues and unfortunately, most can’t make it today. They have taken great care of me like their sister. Most of them graduated from UK and shared with me their experiences. They have helped me along my way, giving me lots of precious advices. One of my great ex-colleague, Boon is here with me together with his girlfriend.
I would like to talk about my district since they are the main front and backstage roles today. I got to know my district leaders, Naka, Bee Khim, Bee Lay and Chee Eng about 4 years ago. I joined in this district when I was just promoted to a YWD Assistance Leader. That time I was very worried. When I first heard that my district MD is a Japanese, I felt stressed. It is because I have the impression that Japanese leader is stern and very strict. However, when I get to know Naka, I realised that he is a very wonderful man.
Naka amazed me with his multi- tasking roles. He is a family man, a businessman, a part- time student, a leader and an active participant for events like NDP. How did he manage to do all so well? That is something that I could never figure out. He has never complains, doing his best for all of us and the members.
Bee Khim never failed to enlighten me with her broad knowledge. She holds the answers to many questions we have. I have learnt so much from her. Bee Lay, the sunshine lady full of laughter, I hope to be like her who makes people smile and laugh all the time. She is the medicine for moody souls.
Chee Eng’s strength inspired me. He move on with strong faith during bad times, never give up and never doubt what he practices. He shown us great actual proof.
Thank you all of you for being with me for four years, giving me guidance, care and understandings. I will miss the time that we work together.
To my YWD leaders, Angie and Florence, you have been great sisters to me, always lending a listening ear to me, always believed in me.
I want to thank all the members from my district, for giving me the opportunity to develop my potential. If I do not have your support, I wouldn’t have been growing.
I would like to keep in touch with all of you. I will be passing this paper around. You can leave your name and email address.
Are you all surprised that I am leaving? Many people have asked why am I pursuing my studies out of a sudden? I have been working for 6 years, why this time? In short, I will put it as opportunities come at the right time.
How do I feel to pursue my studies after graduated for so long? I was worried if I could cope. I have been out of school for so long, I wonder if I could catch up, another factor that contribute to my worries is that I will be taking a different course. It is Medical Engineering.
Medical Engineering is the application of Engineering principles to the medical field. Examples range from the design of artificial joints, development and testing of new medical equipment, to calculating the time of death of human corpses. Very interesting right? But can I handle it? Do I have what it takes to complete my studies?
Then, it takes lot of courage to leave my family and my friends to a place which I am unfamilar and have no one. Many people thinks that “wow”, I am so adventurous to go UK alone for a period of time. But deep inside, there were fears, uncertainties, worries etc...
I have never thought of having this opportunity to study abroad. It is something that I would never expect in my life and I was not prepared for. To me, I have to move out of my comfort zone to another place. It is like I have to learn to crawl again like a baby.
When I was young, Dad always tell me that you have nothing to fear because you have the Gonhonzon. Til now, I always keep this in my mind. There is nothing to be afraid of because we are strong and we can overcome all the obstacles. That is what my Buddhism teaches me too. All of us have the potential to do the most unexpected.
Ikeda Sensei’s says “What is the treasure of youth? It is struggle; it is hard work. Unless you struggle, you cannot become truly strong. Those who fight hard during their youth will have nothing to fear when the time comes to put the finishing touches on their lives. They will possess a great state of life that towers strong and unshakable. In Buddhism, we call this the state of Buddhahood, which nothing can undermine or destroy. It is a state of mind enjoyed by invincible champions of life.”
I know that I will have a difficult time in UK, coping with new environment and culture, struggling and coping on a new course but with this guidance, I know that I can be a champion in my life. I believed that that I will have great experiences to share at the end of my course. Please look forward to my victory after two years.
After my graduation, I hope to work in the medical field, to contribute more to humanity. That is my passion. I hope to see all of you again in good health, stronger faith, wisdom and many victories to share with me.
Once again, thank you all of you.
posted by Samantha at 10:23 PM
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Especially to my Dentists
Over these years, a friendship has developed in this clinic, it was no longer a doctor and a patient relationship. Dr. Sim, a retired dentist struck me as a humorous, interesting and compassionate figure. Dr. Tan is a woman full of wisdom and laughter, I would never forget her.
Thanks to Dr. Sim, the Orthodontist who made me look good like I have never before. Thanks to Dr. Tan for taking care of my teeth every half yearly, making sure that it is in top condition. Thanks to both for recommending Dr. Christina Sim. She has perfected my smile with whiter teeth.
I never have to hide my teeth again.
Thanks to Dr. Sim, the Orthodontist who made me look good like I have never before. Thanks to Dr. Tan for taking care of my teeth every half yearly, making sure that it is in top condition. Thanks to both for recommending Dr. Christina Sim. She has perfected my smile with whiter teeth.
I never have to hide my teeth again.
posted by Samantha at 10:02 AM
Thursday, August 2, 2007
Birthday
It is not the gift or dinner but the thoughts that my friends remember my birthday touches me the most. I love the buzzing from my mobile - well wishing SMS from 12am til 12am. It became some sort of results - how many friends you have.
Yet it could be devastating when friends who never failed to wish me in the past, ended the routine...
Yet it could be devastating when friends who never failed to wish me in the past, ended the routine...
posted by Samantha at 1:28 AM
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Can't live without
I know many who are frustrated if they left their mobiles at home. They can't live without it. I am glad that I am not so much affected in the same way as them. No mobile? Well, that is fine for me so far. (Better keep my fingers crossed)
But there is one thing that I would feel like them and it is my...
Ipod. Yes I could curse and swear if I left my ipod at home. I can't live without my music even if it is a 5 minutes walk. I hate it when I have to listen to noise pollutions during my journey. Everything seems to be so bored without music too...
I am pleased to get my ipod few months back. It has been a part of my journey when I am travelling alone... It sounds ridiculous to say that I rather travel alone so that I could enjoy my music than having friends' accompanies. But is true, sometimes, I do enjoy solitary.
But there is one thing that I would feel like them and it is my...
Ipod. Yes I could curse and swear if I left my ipod at home. I can't live without my music even if it is a 5 minutes walk. I hate it when I have to listen to noise pollutions during my journey. Everything seems to be so bored without music too...
I am pleased to get my ipod few months back. It has been a part of my journey when I am travelling alone... It sounds ridiculous to say that I rather travel alone so that I could enjoy my music than having friends' accompanies. But is true, sometimes, I do enjoy solitary.
posted by Samantha at 3:12 PM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Yucks!
Too much flying has caused me to feel sick... sick of flight food. The sight of it makes me want to puke. Even the business class 5- course dinner that is thought to be better, doesn't improve my appetite.
My taste bud seem to be more sensitive. Flight food has becomes awful to me with that artificial flavourings and terrible taste. I think I had enough.
I just want to have freshly cooked food on my table... taste buds have become more picky...
My taste bud seem to be more sensitive. Flight food has becomes awful to me with that artificial flavourings and terrible taste. I think I had enough.
I just want to have freshly cooked food on my table... taste buds have become more picky...
posted by Samantha at 10:43 PM
Thursday, June 7, 2007
Good genes
I think it is senseless to say that you will have good skin if you take more vitamin C ... or have a slim figure if you take less fats and sugar etc...
Yes food play a part for our well- being but not entirely! I believed in good genes play a part in bodies that we envied. I know some people who doesn't like fruits but junk yet have flawless and baby smooth skin. I know some people who likes chocolates and sinful oily food yet still maintain the slim figure that we thirst about.
John told me that I didn't eat right to have big bust. Hey, it just goes to the wrong place ok! Look at my butt and thighs! Arrrgg...
So I decided to take it easy... after all, I believed my genes make me who I am today, tomorrow and 10 years from now. What the point of working too hard to get what is hard to get? And perhaps never get it at all... (Life is not so fair after all sometimes)
Still... if only I have control over my genes... can it be done? Sighs... What would you want if you could?
Yes food play a part for our well- being but not entirely! I believed in good genes play a part in bodies that we envied. I know some people who doesn't like fruits but junk yet have flawless and baby smooth skin. I know some people who likes chocolates and sinful oily food yet still maintain the slim figure that we thirst about.
John told me that I didn't eat right to have big bust. Hey, it just goes to the wrong place ok! Look at my butt and thighs! Arrrgg...
So I decided to take it easy... after all, I believed my genes make me who I am today, tomorrow and 10 years from now. What the point of working too hard to get what is hard to get? And perhaps never get it at all... (Life is not so fair after all sometimes)
Still... if only I have control over my genes... can it be done? Sighs... What would you want if you could?
posted by Samantha at 9:59 PM
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Sam's photo
I have spent the whole day uploading my photo again on the internet. Few months ago, I have do away with the old account. Then it took me several months to pluck up the courage to sort all my pictures again. The pictures that I owed has become personal... it is all about myself this time.
I have chosen a better website to upload my photos - photobucket... And I am going to share with my friends all the photo I have took around the world... There will be more to come...
I have chosen a better website to upload my photos - photobucket... And I am going to share with my friends all the photo I have took around the world... There will be more to come...
posted by Samantha at 8:30 PM
Ulcers
My tongue ulcers are driving me crazy. I feel like being pinched every few seconds. The stinging pain is pissing me off so much that I want to apply more pain to it. I feel like bursting the 'bubbles' off my tongue. Gross??
I put some salt on it and it is like "wow... ". I try to control my tears and hold on with the pain. Now I have to cancel my Jap buffet dinner with Joey tomorrow and settle on porridge. Sighs...
I put some salt on it and it is like "wow... ". I try to control my tears and hold on with the pain. Now I have to cancel my Jap buffet dinner with Joey tomorrow and settle on porridge. Sighs...
posted by Samantha at 8:21 PM
